I've been cutting for about 4 years. I stopped after being admitted into a hospital unit for teens in August of 2010. I was in there for a month. Worst month of my life.
But the urge to cut is back.
I miss watching the blade tear through my skin.
The feeling of all my stress leaking away.
But I know I cant cut. My boyfriend would flip.
I'm going to try and exercise the urge away.
Hey. I know how you feel. I have been self harming for 14 years... since I was seven.
ReplyDeleteThe last time I cut was two months ago. I love the pain as you do. But I wanted you to know that there are other ways to handle whatever it is that you are going through. I have not had the urge to cut or burn myself since the last time. And I am going through A LOT! I have been hospitalized 7 times in one year due to cutting. It isn't fun. If you continue to do it that is what will happen to you too I'm sure. It's a vicious cycle... I would cut to make myself feel better and it would work... at first. Then I would start to feel guilty for cutting myself and having to hide it from everyone. So... I cut again. Doesn't make sense but it does. They have 12 step programs for just about everything. I used to attend Cutters Anonymous... it was very helpful. Maybe you can try it. If not there are a bunch of coping skills... Working out is an awesome one! I think that would be very good! Anyways... plz just think about what I've said... Good luck!