Im stuck.

I've been stuck in a rut. I guess is the best choice of words.

Lately I've just been eating all day long. 

I wont even bother to purge anymore.

Just eat and eat and eat.

I don't even know why im doing it.

Half the time im not even hungry.

I guess im just so depressed about my weight gain I've pretty much given up on myself.

I worked so hard to make it to 117lbs and to be 160ish lbs now is pretty fucking sad.

I miss my hip bones, i miss seeing  my ribs, i miss being a size 5. 

I guess i can just bitch and moan about it or actually do something.

So I joined a gym close to my house.

Im starting the 2,4,6,8 diet tomorrow.

I need a fresh start.